Month 2: Week 1 Monday Update

I badly need to learn discipline, im sick saying it at this stage but if i don't learn quickly im not going to cut it at this level, simple as. I reviewed my Hand Histories very carefully afterwards and although i lost over 4 buyins i should have only lost 2 or myabe 2.5 buyins. The other 1.5-2 buyins were just bad calls on the river when i made a hand but it was obvious he had a better one.

I've said this a few times now but if i stop and ask myself "what would he bet like this with that i beat" and if i had asked myself that and answered honestly then i would have saved at least 1.5 buyins. I did get a few bad beats but nothing out of the ordinary, another day i will be on the other side of that variance but unless i keep my discipline the rakeback will just be covering my loses.

I dont know if this is a mental block of some sort, or maybe the adreniline rush i get when im under pressure and a pot is building clouds my judgement or possibly im focusing too much at the time on a card that dropped that made my hand and not on what that card could have giving the villain and a example off the top of my head would be a K dropping to make my straight but it was the K of Diamonds which also made the flush and i bet out half the pot only concentrating on me hitting my straight when i should have been thinking hes check/called 2 streets since the Flush Draw on the Flop and now hes come over the top of my bet with an all in on a flush board, and then i should fold.

In an effort to correct this subconscious reaction to ignore that question of what do i beat that would bet this way ill consciously try and let the time run as long as i can before making or calling a river or other important bet and try to listen to the inner voice that's telling me i know im beat. Of course there will be times when they are bluffing but the amount of $ risked to find out will outweigh the few times they are bluffing and when they do bluff and i hit a hand then at least i will have a reason to doubt future river bluffs but untill i see at least 2 i should keep my money on the table.

1692 Hand Played
$212.79 Loss (+$30 Deposit Bonus = -$182.79)
V$PIP 24%
PFR 14%
Showdowns Won 43%
Post Flop Aggro 2.0

Overall Stats 50NL
14,509 Hands Played
Loss -$62.84
BB/100 -0.43
Showdowns Won 47%

Ill add my rakeback in at the end of every week